Today, i was awaken with sweat rolling down my cheek. I remember feeling a little irritated that the door to my balcony was pushed by the wind outside leaving me sleeping in a close room with no ventilation. If only i can scream at the door to open and it will do it by itself, i would have done so. Im staying at the 3rd floor of my building and normally, i enjoy the wind that comes thru my balcony however today that was not the case. I remember, struggling to decide on whether i should stand up and open the door or leave it and go back to sleep. In the end, I had no choice but to wake up, i decided that it's better to wake up now and get some air to stay alive than go back to sleep and suffer in the heat. When i stood up and opened the door, i was surprised of how strong the wind is outside and here i am, sweating in my sleep. Is that fair? I guess i'm just being dramatic but really? everyone is enjoying the wind outside, while i struggle to get some cool air in my sleep. But for some reason, the wind seems to be telling me something. I have this strange feeling inside but i shrugged it off, thinking that it's nothing. Before i went back to bed, i decided to check on my cellphone, just to see if i got any new messages. I have a team outing activity by tomorrow so i need rest because after the activity, i will be off to work immediately so it's gonna be one busy day for me. I want to make sure to get enough rest today to have energy for tomorrow. Also, i have to think about an activity for this team outing and i havent thought of any yet. But for the meantime, i took the time to listen to my instinct and picked that phone up and view my inbox.
As i scan thru my inbox, i saw a message from one of my friends about the Tsunami incident in Japan. I was so shocked and somehow a sudden sadness embraced me. Here i am, worrying of getting enough rest for tomorrow's activity, irritated of the fact that i have to wake up because of the heat, and feeling "unfair" with how i was treated in my sleep but all the while, people from the other side, is screaming for their lives, fearing for their loved ones and worrying for the next few seconds that they're in this predicament. Now tell me, how is that fair?
I can't help but realized how insensitive we get nowadays. We just think of ourselves, what can i get from this? What's in it for me? How can i get what i want?
What has happened to us? They say no man is an island but how come we live thinking that everything revolves around us? It is ironic because all of us, at one point or another, have this need inside us to be wanted, to be accepted and to belong in a group or to someone and if we do, we end up just ruining that because of our selfish thoughts and acts. The funny part is that whenever there are calamities such as the tsunami incident in Japan, this is when we get to think about these things and then for some time realize that every moment of life is precious. But the realization is just a start and it doesn't end there. It's only the beginning. They say it is not your fault that you were born poor or bad but it will be if you stay that way. I guess, what's important is after we reached this realization, what do we do about it?
After hearing this news, i know i still have to go to the team outing and I know i still have to think of the activity i need for tomorrow. Life will still go on. But inside me, all i can think about is the people who have lost their families, their homes, their wealth, and their loved ones. Were they able to tell their families that they love them? Were they able to say sorry and reconcile? Did they get enough time to finish what they were called to do in this life? Then i asked myself, have i done these things? have i said i'm sorry or i love you or i miss you or thank you to the people who deserve these from me?
It's not too late, we still have time. Every second counts and every moment is an opportunity. Let us not waste it. So today, pick up that phone, call your mom, your dad, your family, your friend, your enemy, or anyone who deserve a "sorry", a "thank you", or "i love you" from you. Don't make the mistake of not telling them. This may or can be your last.
